I am going through this misanthropic phase at the moment, which inevitably occurs when I am in contact with a lot of people for a lot of the time and for lots of reasons. Because people become not simply obnoxious but disgusting too. Human nature can be wonderful and disgusting in equal portions.
You know what it feels like when you are in love and everything is splendid and wrapped in a warm and sweet haze? Well, it’s the opposite now. I’ve fallen out of love with people. They look terrifying to me, and instead of a warm and sweet haze, they look sharp and pixelized.
Whatever I have to say won’t make much sense in the long run, because the truth is –as the British ambassador said once while presenting this wonderful book- that it is only through people that we become people. I don’t intend to live apart from people, it is just that right this moment they smell bad. I imagine that this goes both ways.
As for how this feeling came about, I can say with certainty that it happens by approaching too much, as I usually do, and that’s when I notice a side that is not so much dark as it is beige and slimy. One is disgracefully stingy, so much so that they are funny in their attempt to save their pennies. The next is navel gazing so miserably and so continuously that they lose touch with reality. And another one has a problem taming the control freak inside of them and unleashes it against the innocent. Do you remember how Peter Sellers lapses into an involuntary nazi salute in Dr. Strangelove? Something similar.
Thu, May 29, 2008
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