A church, downtown
1. I escaped from the house. I went for a walk downtown. My son’s friend was going to come round to play and bring his –nice, articulate, sweet- mum along too. He doesn’t like it without his mum. I left before they arrived and M. had to do the mummy talking and the tea drinking while the boys were playing with the pirate ships. Why am I such an unsociable twit? I really don’t know. I just know, it felt infinitely better to be outside. Being outside, among strangers was wonderful. I didn’t even go for coffee. I was just walking. I bought silly things from the German bookshop too.
2. “As the darkness closes in In my head I hear whispering Questioning and beckoning But I’m not taken in, I feel loved” (Depeche Mode – I feel loved)
3. Technicolor, where are you.
January 20th, 2006 at 8:35 pm
What a great afternoon! Are you really an unsocial twit that stays in her sarcophagus all the time? NO! I don’t believe it! It’s good to get out in the air and the real world and all. It’s too easy to stay in and get all housestuck. Those are equivocal words from Depeche Mode. Sometimes I get scared the way their music absorbs me.
January 20th, 2006 at 11:50 pm
Great photograph chloe … moody, colorful, something like you?
January 21st, 2006 at 12:32 am
ex-mrs moondog used to always give me a guilt trip if i decided i didn’t want to stick around for company that i didn’t particularly care to have over. of course, i would take an extra extra extra long walk with the dog when things would get more tense with her. i’m not saying that’s what you were doing, but i know that i always used the long long walk to clear my head and release stress.
January 21st, 2006 at 12:50 am
Not quite what I would call ’staging a walk-out’. I have staged hundreds of walk-outs over the years! Marched out of the house, banged the door shut and disappeared for hours ..
It is so dramatic - leaves everybody puzzled and worried for hours while you are having a good time outside!!
Sneaking out of the house for a walk is less dramatic but thats fun too
January 21st, 2006 at 3:05 am
me-time… nothing beats that
January 21st, 2006 at 3:25 am
Beautiful pic. And lovely thoughts.
January 21st, 2006 at 4:32 am
SirBarrett
Depeche Mode scare me too. I was listening to them last night while i was writing the post. But not that song. I was listening to Playing the Angel. All of it. It’s dark and shiny at the same time.
berlinbound
technicolor? oh yes.
thanks
moondog
i know what you mean. it’s good to take a break when things get tense. I can’t really do it though. I want them out in the open and dealt with as soon as possible. So when i take a walk it’s only because i want to be out, not because i can’t stay in.
I might walk my imaginary dog too, just like Fb does.
wriju
hehehe. i can imagine you banging doors and storming outside only to have a cup of tea half an hour later, somewhere warm and nice. You are a true illusion artist.
daria
give me more of me
me me me time
vesper
your new profile picture is beautiful too. with the new haircut.
lovely!
January 21st, 2006 at 5:06 am
Nice picture! How come all the folks here look really good!
I have moments of being unsociable. I like my “alone” times. I seek opportunities to be alone. Maybe because I’m surrounded with people when I’m at work and they all demand every bit of attention..
January 21st, 2006 at 5:44 am
I love to get out by myself. No watch and just breath really good without worries. Your picture is very good.
Can we name your imaginary dog? It only seems right.
Hugs to you, Connie
January 21st, 2006 at 7:01 am
Okay you asked a question adn I’m going to answer it (because that’s just the way I am)
Perhaps it’s self esteem? You might feel that other people are going to judge you or think of you in a negitive way. Therefore you rather avoid the situation. I say make more of an attempt to socialize and who cares what they think. That is their problem. Be who you are and let the world around you experiance who you are by interaction. If you get bad vibes from this one then go on to another. It’s a big world and many people out there could be your friend.
January 21st, 2006 at 7:59 am
That is a really cool picture! I am the same chloe. This weekend I am not working, and I am choosing to wander on my own. Yes, if the food looks nice I will share it with eat it
January 21st, 2006 at 10:23 am
i think you misunderstand me a little. i am talking about after we’ve had it out and things are still tense, not before the conflict occurs. i guess i wasn’t specific about that part of it, but it was the end result of a particularly nasty “argument” aka fight.
January 21st, 2006 at 10:25 am
There are days (this one in particular) when I’d love to do just that, but my mother would most likely call the cops to find me.
January 21st, 2006 at 11:09 am
…I bought silly things from the German bookshop too…
Please define silly… A book in German for example although you cannot understand German?
January 21st, 2006 at 11:39 am
First of all you are not an unsociable twit unut! ( ok ur not a nut either..lol )
Everyone needs alone time for themselves. Good for you Chloe
Ps..sorry for the deleted comment..Too many typos.
January 21st, 2006 at 11:54 am
When you buy from a german bookshop are the books in German? ow many languages do you know?
I dont stay in when people I dont know too well are coming over, its hassle to be polite
January 21st, 2006 at 12:25 pm
n.missy
i think spending time alone is good for us. But it is really good for the others too!
Who do you like particularly when you say they ALL look good?
Connie
oh yes go ahead! it’s a boy though, not a female dog.
daybyday
It would really be a relief for me to think that this is a matter of low self esteem. I fear it might be the opposite.
No, not really. I just get bored easily and i have a really nice time by myself. But i’ll give it a thought! xxxxx
stephanie
i hope when we eventually meet we won’t be too apprehensive, knowing that we’d really like to be alone!
moondog
oh okay. No, i didn’t understand it. In that case, you did the right thing to give the other person some space. I’d only give them the silent treatment and make sure they were really uncomfortable for the rest of the evening.
erikku
is it so dangerous where you live erikku? i hope not.
vista
not that silly!
i bought stickers, tiny cards, figurines, notebooks, pencils. The kind of things you usually find in the letters i send to you!
Heidi
hehe, thanks. typos are my specialty. please don’t claim them all for yourself. xx
January 21st, 2006 at 12:41 pm
I don’t think where we live exactly is dangerous, but we live near a dangerous place. Ma’s just overprotective is all.
January 21st, 2006 at 3:58 pm
chloe - I’ll make sure it’s a social day - I’ll do lots of wandering alone ahead of time
January 21st, 2006 at 7:34 pm
esuoh nevets
i don’t speak or read German. although i’d love to. it’s one of my favourite languages. i only speak english and greek.
i agree. you can’t really eat crisps and curl up on the sofa and watch crap tv when there are strangers around.
Stephanie
i was hoping you’d say that.
January 23rd, 2006 at 10:11 am
For some reason, being alone surrounded by strangers is so much more comfortable than being with people you know.
January 23rd, 2006 at 11:03 pm
There’s nothing wrong with wanting to be alone. That doesn’t make you an unsocial twit. It makes you human. Enjoy that time alone … gives you time to think, and to just be you … not mummy, wife, sister, cousin, whatever … just you. It’s nice.