This is a happy morning. Of the rare kind that happens when most things are right, usually by chance, but it doesn’t matter.
I am writing and there’s Pride and Prejudice (the BBC series, haven’t got my hands on a pirate movie dvd yet) playing in the background, and I am eating toast and orange jam and having some coffee.
Last night I made a couple of cards, but I can’t post them here because it’ll spoil the surprise for the recipients. But they are nice! At last, I am proud of being left handed.
I have been thinking that this past year has been one of the strangest and most fulfilling of my life. All the things that happened, the way my life was turned around, what I couldn’t see before and now see, the new joys I found in things, letting go of parts of my life that were thought of as necessary and important, and finding out that they really weren’t, making new friends through this blog, even eating differently, rediscovering feelings I thought had been buried forever, feeling pain and happiness again, making decisions in minutes about issues that had been bothering me for ages, claiming my time, finding time to do the things I love and having the words to stand up for the things I love.
So, at the end of this year, I am happy. The only thing I badly need for the new year is some discipline to do some serious work. Because, like a child in a candy shop, I have been browsing the candy and not actually paying for any.
You thought that it could never happen
to all the people that you became,
your body lost in legend,
the beast so very tame.
But here, right here,
between the birthmark and the stain,
between the ocean and your open vein,
between the snowman and the rain, once again, once again,
love calls you by your name.
Leonard Cohen- Love calls you by your name
December 6th, 2005 at 5:22 am
Good things come to those who wait:
I am in athens until sunday (then i ll be in Milan again) and i have your coffee…
Your prada bag will be here as soon as i get a promotion…
:p
December 6th, 2005 at 6:16 am
you mean i waited long enough and now i can have my coffee?
December 6th, 2005 at 6:48 am
Chloe;
What a wonderful heartfelt post. Your happiness made me happy. Isn’t that the way the world should be? Peace and love and joy to you this holiday season and may next year be even better than ever!
Love, Cathy
December 6th, 2005 at 7:05 am
Cathy
i think that’s the way the world should be. like you, we should all be happy when friends are happy.
I always think the opposite of what is usually said. That friends are mostly needed when you are happy, to share the joy with. Because everybody has kind words when you are sad, but when you are happy, people feel they can play no part in that.
So thank you, soul sister.
xx
December 6th, 2005 at 7:13 am
This is exactly what i mean chloe…
December 6th, 2005 at 8:05 am
I’m glad you feel that way. It’s the most important thing in life: giving meaning to the bad times we had and feeling better afterwards. I hope you have a happy afternoon too (I’m stuck at work and YES blogging…I’m so bad!)
December 6th, 2005 at 8:15 am
that’s great that you could do what I want to do. let go and change direction a bit.
December 6th, 2005 at 8:54 am
I know this feeling of seeing one’s new life, new ideals, and being happy about it. But don’t forget what ever happened before, if you do, you might find yourself back there again. About sharing happiness with friends I can write a bestseller! Your best friend is your own soul…
December 6th, 2005 at 9:01 am
As ever you inspire me to want to be better
December 6th, 2005 at 9:02 am
Chloe your words made me smile..I wish we can all feel the way you do. I wish you all the best and more in 2006
December 6th, 2005 at 9:40 am
harry
email me or msn me. both are smosh@otenet.gr
and i am really really thankful for the coffee. I didn’t really need the Prada bag. Bags from Accessorize usually do it for me. i’m a simple soul really xxxxx
devil mood
i turned on the christmas lights out in the balcony and boom! everything went off and the air started smelling of burnt plastic.
And then i had this insane thought: “At least my last post would have been a happy one”. Psycho.
zona boy
bourbon helps A LOT
Ruby
I mustn’t forget. Although i tend to make the same mistakes, with full knowledge of past ones.
Steve
Trust me, I’m a guru. (you inspire me too, in many many ways)
Heidi
thank you. i feel glad that i can say these words and fully mean them at last. I’ve never been confused, but on the other hand, not really “at home” for a long long time.
I wish you all the best too.
I’ll probably just write a Wishes Post for all of you, in the next few weeks. As Cathy says, and i love it, peace.
xx
xx
December 6th, 2005 at 9:47 am
me too me too me too!!!
The happiness comes and goes, because after all, no one is happy ALL of the time. I’m at peace with myself for the first time since whats-his-name. Probably ready to love again, should love find me. And all those other things you say too
(love that song)
December 6th, 2005 at 9:51 am
it’ll find you. if it doesn’t you’ll find it. either way, you’ll meet.
Peace (oh Cathy i love this farewell phrase of yours)
December 6th, 2005 at 10:51 am
Chloe;
This is the place to be today!
Peace and love all around!
Hugs hugs.
December 6th, 2005 at 11:02 am
Gosh, there is so much love in this blog!
Can I join in?
December 6th, 2005 at 11:06 am
At the end of the year, you are not suppose to regret. I’m so glad that you can look back on this year with such fullfillment.
December 6th, 2005 at 11:42 am
Whenever I need a pick me up, I know who’s blog to go to.
Remember the old days, like 4 months ago, when you first found me, you were rather gloomy?
I hope you have a happy day all round, in addition to a happy morning. ^_^
December 6th, 2005 at 11:48 am
O.O
WOW your blog looks wonderful, and it looked verra good before!!
*admires the neat banner*
*reads the post again*
Good stuffs! I’ve just been basking in the glow of accepting that I’m a total flake and there’s not a damn thing anyone can do about it.
It’s just nice being able to do things without obsessing about how other people perceive them, just accept that things are whatever they happen to be at that moment, and that if you stop to worry about them, they’ll have changed into something else by the time you’re done obsessing. Not as spiritually nifty as the realizations you’ve come to, but It’ll do. ^.^
Then again, they’re kinda sorta of the same thing… Hm….. o.0
Well merry snow and stuffs!
*poingpoings off to commit mayhem*
December 6th, 2005 at 12:59 pm
Sometimes moments of clarity come along and to share them is a great thing…
December 6th, 2005 at 2:30 pm
Cathy
i have been stealing your words all day!
neurotic missy
a bit saccharine perhaps? It’s just the silly season. You have been granted lifelong membership.
angel
i’m sure in the next few days i’ll regret a couple of things but right now i’m okay
erikku
yes i remember! i was a bit gloomy. i had my good days but was mostly sad. now i’m mostly happy with the odd sad day thrown in.
but we all sound better now. don’t know why. must be the universe.
lazy coyote
we reached the same conclusions coming from opposite directions.
yes we are total flakes and proud of it.
and it is just great that you decided to use your keyboard, although i won’t get too excited about it
Finn
they key word here is “moments”
xx
December 6th, 2005 at 4:10 pm
and it is just great that you decided to use your keyboard, although i won’t get too excited about it
-_-;
December 6th, 2005 at 4:49 pm
lazy coyote
do you know how long i’ve been googling -_-; to understand what you mean?
December 6th, 2005 at 4:52 pm
Glad that your are happy Chloe, or as you said happy at the end of the year.
I’m soooo busy the last days, the silly ‘asset invetory’ project at work wil be running till 23rd of Dec, shit!
I don’t like the motto “Peace, Love..”, something is missing, don’t you think so?
Good night!
December 6th, 2005 at 4:54 pm
Once in a while, Life comes into perfect harmony. I’m glad this happened for you, you deserve it. You remind me of my friend Spider. Like you, she has a unique and fulfilling view of the world, both sweet and humourous at the same time (“At least my last post was a happy one� lmao). You both remind me there is joy in the world.
More Leonard Cohen. I’m beginning to think he’s more popular than Celine Dion. Have you ever heard his song “Closing Time� I love that song. You said once Cohen should be a poet not a singer. Actually, he is. He has written both poetry books and novels, his first poetry collection came out in 1956. He recorded his first album in ‘68.
Hey, I just found out he and I share the same birthday! Maybe I should sharpen the quill and see if I have any poetry left in me.
December 6th, 2005 at 4:56 pm
Oh my God, that’s terrible! What a scare and yes, very crazy thought…we’re probably blogging too much
December 6th, 2005 at 5:08 pm
Du
peace love and understanding?
peace love and money?
peace love and fun fun fun?
peace love and beauty?
peace love and more love?
I think we can add what is missing according to our mood.
blackcrag
I read Spider and like her very much.
Leonard Cohen is very very popular here. I’ve seen him live at least twice. He used to have a house in Hydra, a greek island, many years ago. I love his poetry and one of his novels was recently translated and published here too.
I couldn’t remember Closing Time so i looked it up and i am listening to it now.
“So we struggle and we stagger
down the snakes and up the ladder
to the tower where the blessed hours chime” it’s wonderful Blackcrag!
devil mood
that’s what i thought too. do you think i have to write a “last post” just in case? And teach M how to upload it?
December 6th, 2005 at 5:17 pm
when F. Kafka was saying that all you have to do is stay at your table and everything will happen was he meaning at your table in front of a pc???blogs open your horizons, now all you have to do is live these new prespectives… May your positiviness bring to all of us positivity
December 6th, 2005 at 5:19 pm
Nahh, in the late 60s it was
“Peace, Love and Freedom”
In the late 70s and early 80s (i was a teenager) was like
“Anarchy, Peace and Love”
I keep the latter one
December 6th, 2005 at 6:03 pm
fewer blessings are better then happiness. things like milk duds, old film noir pix, my scwhinn bike and snuggling with a loved one oh and warm buttered pocorn.
I am very glad for your happiness.
December 6th, 2005 at 6:33 pm
Don’t you just love those perfect days where everything goes as regular as clockwork?
With each passing year I feel that something has changed and I have achieved something new this year - maybe thats just me !
December 6th, 2005 at 7:05 pm
Yay! Be proud of your left-handedness. It makes us unique. We’re in the minority.
December 6th, 2005 at 10:55 pm
i am right there with you girl. my life this year has been like the old saying “you have to go through hell to get to heaven”. haven’t decided if i’m in heaven yet, but at least i’m not in hell anymore…
December 6th, 2005 at 11:02 pm
oh chloe, btw.
-_-; is an “anime smilie” showing downcast eyes -_- with a “sweat drop” ; much like o_O or o.O are used like an arched eyebrow. if you sit and stare at it long enough it may come to you eventually
(or should i say -_o )
December 6th, 2005 at 11:03 pm
Good to her you’re having a great year. May it carry over to the next. Needing some discipline? Sounds like someone is in need of a good spanking.
December 7th, 2005 at 12:04 am
chloe,
I am so happy things are coming together for you. You make me smile every time I see you on my blog. To me you are a joy!
All the best to you always!
Missed out on the hugs today.
Hugs. Connie
December 7th, 2005 at 2:13 am
Well, it should be obvious by now I am a person of discerning tastes, chloe. After all, I read your blog.
December 7th, 2005 at 5:16 am
street spirit
i think Kafka must have had something more sinister in mind, but yes, many great things happened to me because of my computer. Of course there is analog life too (as Stephanie says “the other real world”)and many things happened there too.
I really hope next year will be even better and “when i say better i mean never forget her” as the Fun Loving Criminals say. Things need to start happening (for all of us).
Husker Du
i won’t disagree to anything you choose.
pirate
Arrrr, you forgot red ale and southern comfort in front of the fireplace.Thank you so.
true blue guy
it’s not just you. there are years that set us back and years (or moments) that take us somewhere better. i wish the one round the corner will be of the latter kind for you.
kain
I know! who cares about not being able to use scissors! yay!
moondog
and you sound so much better than when i first started reading your blog. want proof? it used to be black, now it’s white.
walter
spanking. i forgot to ask Santa for that in my letter.
Connie
you are a joy too. when i first started writing this blog i only did it for me. it was an online diary. now, it’s also because i want to talk to you. it’s not just me myself and I anymore. i had no idea this would be so great. Hugs, i never want to see you without them
Blackcrag
oh you spoil me.
xx
Thanks
July 8th, 2006 at 6:47 am
best regards, nice info
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July 13th, 2006 at 11:38 am
Keep up the good work
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